Jane here again. It's 7.45pm on New years Eve and I've come home to sleep in my own bed tonight. Phil and Meg are having some time together at the hospital. I really didn't know what to do tonight....whether to stay at PMH, come home or go to Evie's parents' home (Evie was discharged today and her parents kindly invited me to stay at their home and see the New Year in with them - thank you so much guys). I kind of feel very lonely, but on the other hand feel like I need time to reflect on this year, and gather myself together for what I hope, with all of my being, will be a better year next year.
Meg's chemo has kicked in today and she was very "flat" and nauseous for most of the day. We did lots of craft together (well I did most of it while she watched) - making things with buttons and paint, pom-poms, boxes and picture frames (I must get one of those hot glue guns - they're really good!), but Meggie was just going through the motions and feeling very ropey so I put her back to bed. She was very sick, and felt a little better after that but remained very lethargic and quiet. Her medications are making her a little puffy, and one side of her body was very hot compared to the other side. The doctors are keeping a close eye on her as the chemo is so new to them and they aren't familiar with the side effects. I just HATE seeing Meg go through this. I wish it was me. What Mum wouldn't?
So...I'm at home with our dogs and cats and just waiting for the day and the year to end.
Happy New Year to everyone. I hope 2009 is full of all things good for all of us.